Pet:
In the beginning there was no knowledge or
understanding of D/s.
But there is now.
It is hard to believe that it will have been
close to three years now since you first signed the contract and the first time
I put a collar around your neck. Three years! It has not exactly been the
smoothest journey...(fyi, I have blogged about it) but it has certainly been a
journey, and the amount of growth that we have had as individuals and as a
couple is pretty remarkable. As we have said before, entering the D/s relationship
gave a structure that we didn't quite have, and it has really been a rock for
us to ground ourselves to.
Your submission means everything to me. It
really does. Well, as I write that, there are so many things about you that
mean everything to me, but that is certainly at the top of the list. I wish I
could describe the rush of having you kneeled before me; I think that act in
itself is the one that does it for me the most. Then there is the BDSM...the
things that we do in bed. The rush of energy when you first lie across my lap
and I slide your panties down, your ass exposed and slightly raised for my
hand...my cane..my flogger. Bringing it down across your ass..and then
again..and again...the redness appearing, the whimpers emerging, the wetness
dripping. Then, when the quietness begins and you start drifting off into
subspace, and the realization that I have put you in a place where anything and
everything is possible.
I have had many favorite moments with you
since this all began. Intense as fuck sessions...the rape reenactment at my old
place, the time I tied you up to a chair in a hotel room and cut away at your
clothes. The first experimentation with the knife blade, drawing it across your
back, leaving a criss cross of marks that lasted for days.
I like to hurt you. I suppose that should be
wrong but I do not really care. I like to hurt you because of the pleasure I
know it gives you and the pleasure it gives me. Choking you..holy fuck.
This is one of those topics I could write
about on and on...so many different aspects of it that mean so much to
me.
What I have said above is, of course, just the
physical aspect of it.
There is the bigger part, and that is the
emotional side. The trust involved..you trusting me to put yourself in my hand
in such a vulnerable state. Your strong desire to please me. The fact that I
did not claim you so much as you gave yourself to me.
I know I am not a perfect Dom. I probably
spend more time thinking how about I can make myself better over how I can make
you better, because without me being the best I can be, I cannot easily expect
that of you. I wish more than anything for more time for such things..more
times for self-improvement, more time for sessions. This will continue to be
something we learn from as we move ahead.
More time...that is what I want more than
anything. But then I realize that we are in this for life...and we have so many
years ahead, so for that matter, there is all the time in the world.
On this Valentine's Week, I thank you for
giving me the greatest gift ever. You gave me yourself --- in every sense of
the word -- and I love you more than anything for that.
--Your Devoted Sir
That was beautiful!
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