Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Words. They do hit harder than a fist. Everytime I've ever been hit it just pissed me off. This was horrible. Embarassing....was said in front of my late husbands friends. I felt like I was hit....hard. Then the texts. And the bad thing is, he really meant it at the time. What he called me was what he considered me. It is the exact same words I was called many times over. I feel so much doubt right now. Maybe thats what I am if everyone I ever cared about say so. I doubt my morals....my decisions......myself right now. I feel that being submissive to anyone is also tied to what he called me. Perhaps if I were more reserved I would get some respect??? I just dont know. I know S has thrown his apology words out there but if I believe them then shouldnt I believe his other words also?